Dark October Evenings

by Muskan Sethi 20:00 0 comments

(i) you’re the part of October 

I wish I could forget/

(ii) winter takes away a lot from you/

(iii) July felt like sunshine, 

trapped in a box/

(iv) I’m not sure I’m an autumn person/

(v) I do not know what I ever saw in anyone but you/

(vi) November is a paradox that I wish I could solve/

(vii) I don’t do very well around chaos or the lack of it/ 

silence does not help me heal/ 

words do/

the lack of words does/

(viii) I wish I could leave without actually leaving/ 

I wish I wasn’t here/ 

I wish I didn’t have to be/ 

I do not want to not be/

(ix) November isn’t my favourite month/ 

(x) you seem like December on a rainy day/ 

I wish I did not feel like the storm all the time/ 

I miss you/ 

and the lack of you/ 

silence/

(xi) do I really own any of my words? 

(xii) sometimes I feel like a stranger to myself/ 

my words/ 

your words/ 

words//

(xiii) I’m confused, 

it’s summer on a cold January day/ 

and I miss the rain/ 

I wish the weather could heal me.

(xiv) I’m sorry you thought 

that sunshine could ever be a person/

or a month/ 

or a feeling/ 

I’m sorry everyone has to leave/ 

on a dark October evening/

when there is nothing but silence/

to close the door behind them/ 

I’m sorry you have to be/ 

when they aren’t.

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Dark October Evenings 

emmess 

16/10/18