Until you stay

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I’m okay.
I’m okay.
I’m okay.
I’m okay.
I’m okay.
I’m okay.
I’m okay.
I’m okay.
Until the ninth time you ask me if I am. 
I’ll be alright. 

I like this silence. 
All this calm. 
this hush. 
this quiet breathing. 
I love it like this. 
Until you start to whisper. 
I want to scream. 

I love this noise.
all this loud.
this screaming. 
this shouting. 
this war. 
all this fight within me, this chaos. 
this is me. 
Until you stop talking. 
I wish I were the silence. 

I’m scared of floods. 
All the entirety.
The storm that takes over. 
This cyclone of fears. 
It’s a hurricane I run from. 
I try to escape. 
Until you become the waves. 
And I drown. 

I love the spotlight. 
centre stage. 
all the eyes. 
the attention. 
there’s power. 
there’s me. 
Until you find me. 
I wish I could disappear. 




I like this dance. 
we’re moving. 
opposite directions. 
matching footsteps. 
swaying bodies. 
all this rhythm.
all this beat. 
until you step away. 
I wish I could freeze. 

I love all this music. 
the lyrics. 
the chords. 
the tunes. 
all this rhyme. 
this symphony. 
Until you pull the plug. 
I cover my ears. 

I love this fragrance. 
the taste in the air. 
the smell of your shirt. 
your essence. 
Until you walk away. 
I don’t want to breathe again. 

I love how home feels like. 
mine. 
I belong. 
I have a place. 
this place is me. 
I’ll be okay. 
I’ll be fine. 
Until you leave. 
I don’t know a home anymore. 

I’m okay.
I’m okay.
I’m okay.
I’m okay.
I’m okay.
I’m okay.
I’m okay.
I’m okay.
But this time you don’t ask me if I am. 
And I’m not sure if I’ll be alright. 

_until you stay