My Someone

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I hope you know that you meant a lot to me.
You were not just anyone.
You were someone.
My someone.

But then you didn't know.
Maybe because I never told you.
Maybe because you never heard when I tried to.
Or maybe because you didn't want me to.

But. I don't know.
Is this how it's supposed to end? 
Is this how it's going to end?
Because it will.
Somewhere. Someday.

But I guess I just don't want that someday.
And I don't want to be somewhere.
I just want to be here!
With you.
With me.
With us.

But does that ever happen? 
Will that ever happen? 
Maybe.
Maybe not.

But I am scared.
And I am scared to admit that I am scared.
More than I should be.
More than I'm supposed to be.
More than what I wanted to be.

And I'm stuck.
Here.
In reverse.
Without you.
Without me.
Without us.

And I'm just replaying those memories in my mind.
Trying to make them happen again.
Trying to make them again.

Because I'm glad they happened.
I'm glad you happened. 
To me. 
To us.
And I'm glad that we happened.

I don't care how little our infinity. My infinity. Was. 
I'm just glad it was.



That we had a chance. 
And we did have a chance.

But we lost it.
Us.
Me. 
You.

And now it's gone.

And I'm stuck. 
Here.
In reverse.
Without you.
Without me.
Without us.

Trying to make those memories.
Trying to pick up those pieces.
Trying. Just trying.
To hope.
To dream.
For us.
For you.
For me.

And I hope you find someone.
Somewhere down the line.
And you look back.
And remember me.
Us.
You.
Me.

Because, for me, you were not just anyone.
You were someone.
My someone.